oh heck! you know its times like today i find it very hard to beleive he is trying...he can be so cold...so mean...and i just have trouble dealing with it...i try to stay stong but all in all i am me and it just tears me apart..
i dont feel impotant to him...its a dictatorship...not a marriage..he wants things to be how he wants them..and as long as they go his way they he is happy...
was i wrong...is that how marriage is? i dont think i signed up for that kind of marriage i wanted an equal partnership...or does that not exist anymore?